There are times when we are just so overwhelmed by the way life is going. We are so distressed that we don't even know how to pray, so we just sigh and groan. But the holy spirit takes these sighs and groans and turns them into prayers to our father.

No matter what is happening, god is going to take your present circumstances and make the good out of the bad.but His ultimate goal is to take all that happens, the good and the bad, happy and the sad, and make us more like Jesus.

Because that is the objective and endgame for every believer.

I felt better after reading this. Cuz i know God hears my sighs and groans!

I know you'll choose him and you'll choose her
Why do i lose the people most impt to me?

Don't ask why.
Say, ok.
I'm willing to sacrifice, are you? I know if i don't catch you now, I'll never.

Got a long night ahead of me.
Idk why but things still doesn't feel the same as it used to.
Up till now.
But I'm trying my best to make it seem like how its supposed to be.

I HATE THE WEATHER IM DEHYDRATING.
gah.
im in a sian mood.
i havent done any work cuz i was so bloody stressed yst.
and I realised i didnt bring back my chinese test to do corrections and its due tmr im so freaking dead.
gah. I want to pon school tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stop putting yourself down.

Failed a math. Like most, or at least half, i studied and failed.
Know how it feels like to feel like you're at the top of the world.
Know how it feels like to crash and burn.
When someone gets lousier then you, just shut up.
I'm glad i did that yst cuz its so annoying when someone talks to you like that.
Just give em some air and she'll be fine by recess.

KEEP MOVING FORWARD. - Mr Robinson. Not from TK, from Meet the Robinsons the movie.
Haha.

GloriaNgSimin Its one thing to have a negative emotion and another to cause someone else to have a negative emotion. 24minutes ago.

Well got some real good results today PTL.
It feels weird, once again.
Cuz i didn't want to be all braggy and i actually felt stressed, just being afraid that I'd say something wrong and hurt others. So i just sat there. Feeling so awkward.
I know how it feels like to get lousy results and see others get better than you.
Esp if its someone who usually does avg only.

Well don't wanna stress myself too much by having high expectations.
Cuz I'll feel so lousy if i do badly.
People always say, aim high.
But nah. Just do your best.
You'll be pleasantly surprised if you do well.
But if you don't, just keep moving forward!

Its so cool how my results has been getting better ever since i decided to sit down and do my hmwk everyday.

Kk I'm in a preachy mood.
Really like my tuition teacher. I learn a lot of life values from him.
There are 4 aspects of life. School. Family. Health. Leisure.
You know. I'm never gonna be the kind who gives up my family health and leisure for school.
Yes, i know its impt to study so my future will be bright.
But what's the point if i get good results and lose everything else??
Damn. Life is short. Live it!

Like what our principal Mr Lee always say, do things in moderation.
All 4 aspects must coexist together.
Do not neglect anyone of them!
Or you'll turn out dumb, broken, fat and lonely. Hahahaha

I try to hide it so that no one knows, but i guess it shows when you look into my eyes.

I'm not going cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving, I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle, when it might save you

I didn't make it seem so but today was a terrible and painful day.
Sigh. Time to pop pills

Oral was ok. Glad that i could understand the question and it wasn't the ' tell me a time' type.
But definitely could have done better. When i walked out of the hall much better ideas came to my head.

Lol. I got 15/20 for Chinese summary LOL
But i got 14/30 for English summary and failed compre-.-

I seem to be good at human geog! Consistently good.
I like these tests, less study more crap.

Bloop.

O lord our lord how majestic is your name in all the earth
O lord our lord how majestic is your name in all the earth
The heavens declare your greatness
The oceans cry out to you
The mountains they bow down before you.

English oral tmr!
Just hope topic isn't those 'tell me a time about'
I blank out.

God, life is short.
I should be thankful that I'm alive and well...

It sucks cuz things have never been the same. I really miss the good old times.

gloria says:
there are a lot of smart and cocky people and the world who keep knowledge to themselves and just refuse to help those weaker ones. those selfish bastards. I'm damn glad you're not one of 'em (((:

im really really touched how some friends i know are willing to go the extra mile for me, willing to teach me things i dont know but am supposed to know. and these are friends who are doing academically well. I mean, some other people nowadays are so selfish and cocky. they only want themselves to do well and see others as competitors.
(perhaps they think im too lousy that's why they dont mind helping me haha)
but those people are like cockheads man. srsly.

Kudos to those who are generous and patient. le yu zhu ren.
damn these people, i really gotta look up to them.

you know, I have a feeling that if I were academically well to do, I would be one of those cockheads... so arrogant.
Thank God for making me a lazy person. Now that I know how it feels like to be lazy and suck big time, i've gotta be hardworking and rock the world, but at the same time empathize for others, dont be a cockhead.

In the future when im getting really good results, I can tell myself, I know what it feels like to hate cockheads, so dont be one.

Yesterday was the worst test ever. Among all the As and Bs I've been getting, there's gonna be a big red F.
I can't believed how angry i was at the test yst. But its all over now.
Oral coming!! Gah.
When I'm angry i get violent when I'm sad i get depressed.
Its normal.

Last night I tried to flip my house over in attempt to recover from "memory loss".
Failed miserably and so I gave up. lol! move on yea?

Today feels better than the past few days.
;)

flashbacks.

I think I have amnesia. How timely.
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today was pretty alright! believing for more and greater things!
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ffff me im jealous.
bear with it, bear with it.
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'I've never cried so much in a year. compared to other years, this year is the most.'
brother, though you didn't see through me, know you're not alone.
I might be a 100 times more vulnerable than last year, but perhaps i've grown more compassionate too.

even now, im so vulnerable i can fall to pieces just being attacked by words.
but like in today's video, I know God can heal my wounds.
I used to really hate vulnerability. I used to think it showed people my weakness. I hated weakness. that resulted in my hardened heart.
I might be able forget some happy and bad times, but i'll always rmb the horrible times.
And though I'm hurting 1000 times more than I used to, I rather hurt than shut myself from God and the world.

People, don't harden your hearts cuz when you wake up, it really hurts.

GloriaNgSimin
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I would have been waiting for time to pass, this time last year, all planned out.
But now I'm still scrambling for ideas.
Put me in a good mood please.

If I didnt, this wouldnt.
damn why did I.........

I won't lie, I'm damn disappointed. I dreamt of things much bigger than this. But the turn up is just go discouraging. Its better than none but 1 is just too little.

Why is it that I'm losing so much these days?
Gah its so frustrating.
I really don't know what to do abt it.

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The worst thing is that when you're in the depths, and you know you're all alone and there's no one there to pull you up. Yea, there's God, but sometimes we want other kinds of help.
Its depressing . Fml

was cooking lunch for sister and I, and something came across my mind.
"Sometimes, we forget how lucky we are"

I dont feel patriotic this year.

All the best for NDP to Kristine, Jovii, Hannah and the rest(?)......

I'll take that as a second chance. *dances around the room
Just came home, spent 14hours outside today.
I haven't bathed in more than a day . But I'm so lazy and tired I'll bathe tmr:p
Though i feel damn disgusting.

Its a new day!
Finger cramp x2 during day of his power lol!

Daddy's the only nice one around who's willing to go out and get me a midnight snack!
I'm blessed.

It is said, some people lose their only true best friend they will ever have.
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You have abundance of what I lack. You'll be fine. That's what matters, right?

You told me, commitment, selflessness. I hope this fulfills.

God, I had doubted my commitment, but I had never doubted my selflessness.
Indeed, the message was from You. Thanks for reminder, but perhaps by the time I took it seriously, it was all too late. Regrets do not change anything.

It was really hurtful. just really really painful
sigh.

You know me best, you should know how I'm shattering.

love the way you lie.

Now I know we said things, did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me

Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fistat the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather.
Cuz lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

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You know, there should be definition for everything in life.
last week, i was looking for the definition for a word, something/someone that is pretty impt in my life.
happy thoughts flashed across my mind as i thought of all the fortunate and everlasting irreplaceable memories i had.
then a qn turned back to me, could I be defined as that word?
I definitely could not. Far from it, in fact.
Scrolling through the list of varying personal definitions from users all over the world... I found too many.
But all of them were right.

And when the question pointed back at me, I realized how much more I had to change, how much I had been flawed all these while.
It was good actually, I realized I had to change. Self improvement.
I used to think that I was enough.
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Ptl for more good results. I'm so unused to doing well!
hahaha! im not joking ._.

The weather's such a B today. Felt so dead during last 2 lessons. Laid out my plans for this 2 months. A little hectic.
Oh and ptl for chem, oral and geog marks. :)

A very long time since I've seen an A for my math! YAY. Ptl:)
Let's go determination! Booking study dates with ppl:)

Taking a a break from studying! Seems like I'm off to a good start. Was just thinking abt something.
What do i study for? Parents, get into good jc, money, friends?
Although i study for all that, my main objective is to do really well in life. Cuz i know the only way i can be successful in the economic world today is to do well in school. My only ticket to wealth and to a certain extent happiness is first by getting a good education.

What do you study for?

there goes my midterm break!
I must tell myself, I have played enough and I must study now.
and I WILL STUDY.
yeah.
been out everyday last week.
but that's it.

cmon people LET'S MUG FOR O'S!
AAAAAH.
*war cry*
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The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll give my praise to You