LOL, GHANDI.
( this was really random it just popped into my head )
today's assembly was quite, interesting.
I think parts of it are quite true lor... :/
stomachache ah.
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well anyway, today i finally got the guts to show my mama my progress report
after procrastinating for 1 week ;/

I decided to be responsible by not waiting till she was leaving the house then show her the report.

she lectured me for about 20 to 30mins? gaaah.

it's been a long time since she lectured me la :///

well anyway in the end she decided not to sign my progress report.

its not surprising to me la, she said that like lots of times before.

I'm cut off from all technological communications :((((

the only reason why im here now its cuz my mom went out.

I'm proud that my life can still function without those devices.

I hate bad technology.

at least i know my life doesn't revolve around it.

heard something real encouraging today! (:

I'll get to the bottom of this.

weather's nuts. first it was darn hot. then now its raining v heavily.

physics was so screwed. I couldnt think at all la.

some headache-y thing i guess.

You're such a ______ you know... In ____ __your friends, you scold _ _____ in almost every sentence. You ____, you ___. In front __ ____ ______, you're an angel. Why??

Only hear the good stuff, my friend.

LOLzx.

okay geography. :(

okay feeling better after sleeping and eating and watching korean drama and doing work!
so shall blog about happy things!
(happy thoughts people!)

okay friday was amazing.
it actually wasn't my slot (scheduled time) to go, but i just went anyways.
it was the only time and day i could make it.
on the way there, ( I was late -.-) i was trying to quieten down my heart and stop thinking abt anything else.
and yeah. He was definitely there.
the minute i stepped into the hall, everything changed.
Haven't been feeling this overwhelmed in a long long time :/
Sermon was very good.
perhaps people use/wear it for a fashion statement. but to me, it serves as a reminder about the reason for my very existence. -sometimes i just forget.
I feel so blessed. All the 'debt' i owe is gone cuz of what he had done for me.
sometimes I feel really undeserving. like I'm so darn small and well, just real small in this big big world. but it's all good. God's all good.

So came back around 11pm, next day had tribe run.
signed up for 10km with the cell.
Lol to be really really honest, its not that hard to run 10km.
you just need company.
if not you'll prolly bore yourself in the final 5km. seriously.
I had company! Hannah haha.
it was rather funny cuz we ran abt 5km alr, then felt real tired and HOT.
so we walked whenever we were in the shade, ran when we were in the sun to get to the shade. LOL.
then started doing weird stuff. like swimming while running and other stuff...
Met Jx on the way, he had leg cramp :S he ran 20km!!
woahzx.

had lunch, crazy stuff, then movie at marinasq.
how to train a dragon! (?)
really cute laaaaaa. no one will deny abt that!
trained to Beeshan, granny's.

my legs are aching right now :(
but there had been worse.
feels great to conquer such a distance. okay my timing wasn't great or anything la. but at least now I can say I ran 10km :P
okay, the next time I run 10km again i'll be serious!

This weekend was super busy ...

there were so many things I had to think about, but I had no time.

- How to pass my mom my progress report ( not done)

- What to write in my testimony ( not done)

-TGIF guestlist ( DONE)

gaah firstly, my progress report.

I think its my worst ever progress report :((

you wouldnt know how depressed i feel.

I can't even account for my horrible results.

I can imagine others giving their reports to their parents, and their parents will be so damn proud.

and mine.................... effing higher chinese pull down my %.bitchbitch knnnnn.

efff .

and you know what. others got higher than me when they dont even deserve it.

shameless.

testimony- I really dont know what to write la. can't be really bothered actually.gah.

k those are the horrible parts of the wkend.

friday night was really great.

saturday morning was really great.

I completed 10km and I got a cert to prove it.

watched movie after that and then granny's house.

church this morning, im actually home quite early today.

my mood is really drooopy now :(

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS SINGAPORE IS DAAAAAMN COOOL AHHHHH I WANNA GO LAAAAAA
http://www.rwsentosa.com/language/en-US/MapsUSS
CHECK IT OUT PEOPLE!!!
SOMEONE TAKE ME THERE PLZZZZZZ.
it'll be my second Universal Studios :DDDDDD
AHHHHHHHH
STOKEDSTOKEDSTOKED.
( for nothing :( )

I realised my life is so normal!
its not bad, but its just really normal.
was talking abt it on the bus today.

I'm hardworking in school(I try la okay hahaha),
i'm active in my CCA.
I'm active in church,
i have good friends,
i have a good family,
i like sports,
i like music.
o.o I feel so balanced.
and I'm not specially interested in something out of the ordinary.
I'm so... normal.
Maybe I should take up a new hobby.

(after much thought) I know being normal is good.
many people wished the could be normal. I should be contented.
but you know, we always want more once we have it.
There's something MISSING!
i should try inventing something. hahaha

you could have be destined for much greater things.
but perhaps this is the way things should go.
at times, i wanted to ask you, do you think this is right?
geeeeeez. I want to help.......
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the only lesson that i try to sleep in is CHINESE.
use my hand to cover my head so he cant see my eyes closed.

Slow Sundays

I wouldn't apologise, I'd say " what's your problem ".
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always the last one running out of the house!

today was good.
I want a dream. and I think I've been given one.

S CUBE!

when everyone's just so darn nervous,[including yourself - till your fingers start to turn cold ( happens when im real nervous)], just put on a brave front.
Pull up the courage. Tell everyone; its gonna be okay, chill, breathe...
Tell yourself; its just another competition, it don't matter, dont freak out.
PRAY HARD.
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Spent last night at Christopher's house.
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Finally the day came, after rushing our rehearsals!
(okay super idiotic at the earlier part in school, nv tell us info beforehand, must wait till we find out by ourselves -.-)
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super freaked.
.
..
..
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.
. I think we rocked it. Or I feel good at least :P
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Swensens and talked ((:

Am I supposed to know? .........
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i think in whatever we do, we must always try to enjoy doing it.
If we dont do it for fun, what's the point...
tomorrow's the day... - whatever!
main highlight - TONIGHT :D


Don't laugh; we're trying.

I AM DAAAAAAAAAAMN HAPPY!

the headache/brain-tumor symptom thing has STOPPED!

after I ate panadol this afternoon.

it was so horrible la.

it kept hitting throughout the night, couldnt sleep :(

gaah.

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bitch. it just came back.

:'(

got bored, went to search about some artists on the internet.

It started from just a song with a lot of hate towards God. More of questions, "why" It's about the disappointment, the heartache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you’re let down, sometimes you’re the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and I’m still right in the thick of it. There’s some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest.

pondering over it.

well anyway, I got this really strange/peculiar/weird/out of the ordinary headache :(
it's been here since last night.
like short sharp pains at the back of my skull, right next to my left ear.
when it comes it leaves me with a tightened, (rather constipated) look on my face.
then it's gone and im back to normal.
gaaah. freaking annoying.
this morning, i had this rather sudden muscle pull on my arm.
and now i cant straighten my left arm. or it'll hurt.
so im walking around now, with my left arm staged like a robot.
90degree angle.
my head is fixed on my neck, not moving left or right or up or down.
i figured whenever i do that, the pain comes.
so i look pretty much like an idiot right now and i have no idea why i am tell you all this.

just bloody bored, my friends.
come talk to me. i'll give you a treat.

kisses;

The people who I want to talk to, dont want to talk to me.
The people who I dont want to talk to, pian pian come talk to me.
-.-

I'm kind of STOKED FOR CAAAAAAAMP!

dictionary.com :

stoked   [stohkt]
–adjectiveSlang.
1. exhilarated; excited.
2. intoxicated or stupefied with a drug; high.

yea. but its like a kind of. i think i'd be damn shagged when day 2 ends.

its 11.30pm i feel like i should do my hmwk but im uber lazy.

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and I think, YOU deserve better.
Appreciate the trust you have in me but I don't really know how to help you :/
cheer up and stop stressing out yeah (:

I feel real awake, out of a sudden. Haha.
okay. I finally feel like talking again.
but my teeth still hurts :(

wed - GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D
thurs - dinner w.
fri to sun - camp.
if only camp didnt have to be on sunday la.
i had plans.

some people said I deserve better.

i like the idea that we share our life stories.
its not like a "i dont really know much about you but im talking to you anyway" conv.
more of a " oh yeah i know your problems and your life and you know mine so i feel more comfortable with you" kind of conv.

we don't hide things from each other (:
- okay sure got one la-
but i just feel more at ease talking to them.
i dont feel judged.
its like, we tell each other things that we never dare to tell others.
cuz it might seem really weird.
or they just would not understand.
lol but i actually found people who does the same -coughs- things that i do.
hahahaha. cool.

i like the idea of having combined cell actually.
-exp some of them are quite ___!!
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you wouldnt believe what kind of day i had yesterday.
sun burn, 6km run.
whole body aching.
even while i was sleeping, i couldnt have a piece of mind.
i had four dreams.
all of which pointed to 1 common conclusion.
FOUR DREAMS.
maybe its because i've been thinking a hell lot about it, till i even dream about it.
perhaps even more than that.
the dreams weren't good at all, fyi.
geeez.
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thousands or firey arrows are being shot at me right now.
and cuz i'd let my guard down, i got hit.

Today: gave that face of disappointment and pondered over the meaning everything; my life, people.

Just another average day.,
no actually its just today.

I don't wait for a free day to come by, I make time to make a day free.
if only everyone did that.
no such thing as " no time" or "too busy" anymore.
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its going to be like the most depressing weekend of the year ever.
:((((((((

thinking of planning a really hot and wild party after o's.
:DDD
or we can start during march camp. hahah.